Just now saw this thread. I'm glad you decided not to leave the group, Cab. I too am going through something now and feel as you do. The thing that I most turned to (besides the big Guy), to bring me peace and joy, now seems like a chore. The new pedals that I was so excited to get, just a few weeks ago, are now just more pieces of gear. I already have way too much of that. It's not a good place to be, especially alone. I was a daily player but haven't played in about two weeks. I think we need help, as Ian mentioned.