flyingfrets 0 Report post Posted June 29, 2015 After learning of Chris Squire's passing yesterday, I saw my own oncologist this afternoon. After a radical prostatectomy, having a lung resectioned, scores of drugs with hellacious side effects, hormone therapy, 7 rounds of radiation and finally 3 moths of brutal chemotherapy...I learned that my PSA numbers doubled again - while I was on chemo. He says that is of grave concern and if I don't respond to this last shot at a new hormone therapy, he can't do anything but refer me to his colleagues in Philadelphia. They would attempt clinical trials (which my insurance may or may not be willing to pay for). But it sounds like they're gradually moving toward trying to prolong my my life on the order of months instead of beating this. I was told given the aggressive nature of my disease, eventually it would outpace treatment. I'm just praying this isn't it. Sorry...I'm scared. I'm only 54... Quote Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
'Scales 523 Report post Posted June 29, 2015 what do you say?.. Another reminder to us all to live every moment and not waste time and emotion on the meaningless stuff. Intense best wishes and hope to you man. Quote Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
pippy 1,550 Report post Posted June 29, 2015 My sincere very, very best wishes for the new therapy and, perhaps looking to the longer term, the Philadelphia specialists. P. Quote Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
Mr. Gibson 600 Report post Posted June 29, 2015 . Quote Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
brad1 523 Report post Posted June 29, 2015 I will put you in my prayers. I am 53, and can't imagine what you must be going through. My Dad is receiving hospice care right now. He has battled cancer for 5 years. He has only days/weeks left. God bless ya man. Quote Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
brc 50 Report post Posted June 29, 2015 Damn, what can be said at a time like this other than we All hope you will over come this battle. It Can be done as I went through it in 2009. Keep a positive attitude and know in your heart it can be beat, and you are just the one to do it. Our prayers and thoughts are with you . Being scared is just not knowing what's ahead. But if you know you will win this battle, then you really have already won. Quote Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
SteveFord 584 Report post Posted June 29, 2015 Here's hoping for a complete 180 for you. Quote Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
LarryUK 343 Report post Posted June 29, 2015 Wow. Bad news. I hope they can turn it around. Do you have much family? Are they supportive? Quote Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
kidblast 1,367 Report post Posted June 29, 2015 It's OK to be scared. I would be too. Prayers for some good news for you flyingfrets. Hang in there. Quote Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
Rabs 1,340 Report post Posted June 30, 2015 As all have said.. Heres hoping for the best for you... Quote Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
arlum 0 Report post Posted June 30, 2015 A heart felt wish for your full recovery. Don't start looking at or believing the odds. Tomorrow is only one day away. Focus on tomorrow and live life one day at a time. Don't worry about six months or six years down the road. Tomorrow equals success and success can be limitless. Quote Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
splake 2 Report post Posted June 30, 2015 Good Luck My friend. Now you have a chance to get your spiritual house in order with the Lord for what ever comes next in the upcoming months or years for you fighting this horrible disease that in one way or another will claim most of us. Many do not have that chance. I am not a bible thumper by any means, just an old catholic. Demand that the Lord comes and reveals himself to you. Forget all the bullshit that the church and many evangelicals preach. Ask and speak to him directly. Ask that he takes your hand in your time of need. Now. We are all hanging by threads. I will keep you in my prayers my friend. Battle hard. Cancer has devestated my family. I am sure I am slated for the fight you are engaged in also one day. God bless you. T. Quote Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
kelly campbell 290 Report post Posted June 30, 2015 Flyingfrets My Heart goes out to you and your family I wish you all the best and will be thinking of you...and hell yes it is ok to be scared..I am 56 and I live everyday like it is my last due to a very bad family history of heart disease and I am already the longest living male in me immediate family, so I understand and don't blame you at all for being scared but don't give up, fight like hell and love every moment you have...we will be rooting for you. Quote Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
saturn 370 Report post Posted June 30, 2015 Not much else I can add to what's already been said other than I'm pulling for you. Try to keep your spirits up and hopefully a better prognosis will come along. Stay strong. Quote Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
Tman 399 Report post Posted June 30, 2015 Very best to you Flying Frets. give it all that you have, which is a lot Quote Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
Mr. C.O. Jones 34 Report post Posted June 30, 2015 Doesn't matter what the doctors think, as long as you keep fighting to beat it. Send you lots of good energy and best wishes. Quote Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
Cougar 198 Report post Posted June 30, 2015 Good vibes your way, frets. Lots of 'em. Quote Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
merciful-evans 955 Report post Posted June 30, 2015 You are dealing with your fear by sharing that with us. Strange as it sounds, it takes courage to admit that. The brave are not without fear, they confront it. I know 2 people who are living well beyond their medics projections. Quote Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
Wee Davy 9 Report post Posted June 30, 2015 Nothing wrong with being scared. Try and find one good thing about every day. I know it's hard but it'll help you throught the dark days. It's kept me going for the last three years. Good luck mate. Quote Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
matiac 309 Report post Posted June 30, 2015 Sorry to hear...what about that 'Cancer Research Institute', they use a lot of treatments that have a pretty good track record...worth a shot anyway. Prayers all around...be well soon... Quote Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
Silvercrow 0 Report post Posted June 30, 2015 Hi FlyingFrets- We'll keep you in our prayers here at the house. My career field has taught me that life is tenuous. My Faith teaches me that all things are possible! Being scared is OK...just please try not to be scared into inaction or giving up. My Faith tells me it's not over until He says it's over! Blessings, grace and comfort to you and your family... Brian Quote Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
rich1978 0 Report post Posted June 30, 2015 what do you say?.. Another reminder to us all to live every moment and not waste time and emotion on the meaningless stuff. Intense best wishes and hope to you man. My sincere very, very best wishes for the new therapy and, perhaps looking to the longer term, the Philadelphia specialists. P. It's OK to be scared. I would be too. Prayers for some good news for you flyingfrets. Hang in there. my hearts with ya. can't think who said it but "the guitar is a good way of expressing ya self" it's worked for me! lock ya self a away couple of hour's a bang out some awesome tunes Quote Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
Thunderchild 82 Report post Posted June 30, 2015 After going thru cancer with my wife, I can tell you for sure that prayer works. The folks on this forum are fantastic prayer warriors. My wife felt them and so did I. After posting here and over in the Epi lounge, I told her she was world wide, and she started to cry, saying she had just felt a peace wash over her. Again I thank GOD for everyone of you and your gifts. Flyingfrets, in Isaiah 41:30 it says "But those that wait upon the Lord, will renew their strength, they will rise up on wings like eagles, they will run and not grow weary, they will walk and not grow faint" You have all I can give, GOD bless TC Quote Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
american cheez 120 Report post Posted June 30, 2015 i don't know you, but i hope that you can look back and say "i had a good ride" i hope there are lots of cool memories in your heart. i hope you rarely or never knew boredom. i hope you can see the positive impact you've surely made to many others. when my life was iffy, these were some of the things that comforted me. Quote Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
jaxson50 641 Report post Posted July 1, 2015 Sorry to hear about your condition FF, don't give up the fight. We are all praying for you and sending our best thoughts and energy your way. Quote Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
